Told Him that I refuse to ever be lost for words when it comes to sharing His word. Yes, literally, cried out to God like a baby, tears вЂnвЂ™ all, and told Him that I refuse to have this вЂblockвЂ™. But then I criedвЂ¦Д«ecause it really hurt to not be able to easily do what I enjoyed so much. Thus, I still tried to write the cover-up, but of course, I still had a block.

So simply put, I wanted toВ dress up the words in this post in a way that wouldnвЂ™t blatantly call my own self out as the one to blame for how my walk with God has been these past few monthsвЂ¦ IвЂ™ve allowed myself to become less bothered about truly wanting to desire God more, and have become content in believing the lie that вЂitвЂ™ll come back when the time is rightвЂ™. Instead, IвЂ™ve spent most of the hours of my day on social media, or better still, playing this one particular game on my phone (that even my family have noticed is becoming ridiculous)! IвЂ™ve been too lazy to dedicate quality time to learn more about GodвЂ™s word, through reading my bible or listening to sermons. I havenвЂ™t spent enough time just sitting and chatting with God. In the past few months, I havenвЂ™t prayed enough/properly (according to what I believe God deserves from me). Like I said, I restarted this post a few times, and in the takes that didnвЂ™t make it, what I tried to do was scheme, and think of ways to make this whole quiet season sound as artistic as possible, as scripturally-inclined as possible, and basically pull the wool over your eyes so you didnвЂ™t know the raw simple truth about itвЂ¦ So I wanted to let you know that, yes, IвЂ™ve experienced a weird block/silence/poor connection with God, but I wanted to make it seem like it was God-ordainedвЂ¦ But that would have been a lie. What I intended to do with this post, was to not seem as irresponsible with my spiritual life, as I personally feel I have been in the past few months. This time, I was serious, and I believe God saw that, felt that, and thus released His voice onto me. The difference today however, was that I wasnвЂ™t taking no for an answer. Prior to today, I had attempted to post about three times before, on random days, but the flow just wasnвЂ™t there, because something just wasnвЂ™t right. I wasnвЂ™t entirely sure of the topic, but I knew it would be natural to discuss the season that IвЂ™m just coming out of. IвЂ™d pause a moment, then start typing again. I was adamant that I would get back on track with the work of God вЂ“ this work of God, this ministry, my baby that He gave meвЂ¦ Therefore I typed and started this post in a few different ways, but I still kept feeling the same block that had stopped me from posting in so long. IвЂ™ll walk you through what happened todayвЂ¦ I walked around content with not knowing why things felt different, and I embraced a false perception that grace would bring me back on track.ДonвЂ™t get me wrong, grace has the power to do so many things, but in this case, God showed me that intentionality (coupled with the grace to realise it) was what I needed. ItвЂ™s been a weird few months in terms of spirituality for me, and for the longest time, I told myself I didnвЂ™t know why.

Today I pray that the honesty in this post will inspire you to no longer be content with wandering away from God, and instead pick up your bible again, and have a spiritually nourishing meal with the King! I donвЂ™t know about you, but if youвЂ™ve ever gone through a time when you felt distant from God, or that your spiritual life just simply wasnвЂ™t where you knew it could be/ought to be, then youвЂ™ll understand that itвЂ™s not really a nice feeling/season to experience.

The journey back word